In the last few months I have been trying to re-find my own personal style. I had realized one day when trying to find something to wear that the majority of clothes in my closet were ones my ex-husband would be happy to see me wear. These clothes were NOT me, and didn't reflect who or what I am. So I endured most women's nightmare, I went shopping to find clothes, 1. clothes that truly fit, 2. clothes that reflected my personality and choices, and 3. clothes that I could afford. A lot to ask for I know. Well slowly but surely I am finding clothes that I like, that are comfortable to wear, and yes that I can afford. ( Saw a commercial on tv that had a shirt I liked, so I went online to check it out, Ya $365.00 for a knit shirt!! No Thanks!! ) This might sound trivial compared to some issues, but it was really effecting my life. I had to stop and examine my life, what am I doing that is for others, especially others who don't matter anymore, that is sacrificing who I am and making me change, in not a good way. I realized that I dressed different, I ate different ( those who know my husband will understand this ), I even stopped being artistic. I have always painted, drawn, something. I have not done art in almost 6 years. This blows my mind, there used to not be a day that went by that I didn't do some form of art. This is truly a time that I need to find me and who I am again. At times I think what happened to the independent, outgoing, strong woman that I thought I was, why is this muted woman standing in her place??
Saturday, May 31, 2008
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