I love being a mom...I do... but every so often I go through a "mom funk". Being a single mom makes it so I have very little "me" time. I have no family that can take Regen for the night or even for a day. Most of my friends are kidless, and Regen's friends don't really do stuff together on the weekends, so I rarely get a kid free weekend. I've gotten away lately, but each time it has been packed with class and travel, or it's a quick trip with others, no real time to myself...so you add up six to twelve months of this and I hit the "mom funk". "Mom funk" is when you truly love your kids but you wish they would just disappear for a day or so (of course somewhere safe), or it was legal to duck tape them in the closet for an hour or so ( just kidding). I get crabby, short tempered, fussy, and I just want to be left alone. I hate being in the funk, and try hard to not reach that point. However this round of "mom funk" has hit me unawares, I was so focused on work, Regen's cheer, and school starting that I didn't notice my testiness, and the need for "me" time till I was in full funk mode. Now I am desperately looking at our schedule trying to find a day. even a few hours that I can escape into and get out of this funk. Why is it that even when you love your kids, want to be in their lives as much as possible, you still get the "mom funk" and wanna get away from them???
2 comments:
You know, it happens in all areas, not just kids so you can't let the guilt get ya. work funk. people funk. life funk. the kids just have to take their turn every once in a while.
K
How I feel you. I know how hard it can be to be alone in this owrld and not have support from no one to help you out even for just a little bit. I have been living the single Mom life since Nov. of last year. My kids dad is in prison for getting in a car accident that killed his best friend. Crazy I know. There was nothing illegal involved it was just a palin accident. So until he is released I am all alone. I have my family but its like I always have to make extra special arrangements just for someone to watch my kids. Its stressfull just trying to find a sitter. It is hard but remember that GOD never puts things on our path that we can't handle. I know exactly how you feel. Just take it day by day thats all we can do.
Angelica
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